Many activties and festivities during this month and I am just truly blessed with the happiness. Eseh. Jiwang much. WAHAHA!

 Raya oh raya! So many open houses Alhamdulillah! I do apologise for not attending or even visit some of you guys :(. InsyaAllah I'll come during the other months. Bolehkan? Inda semestinya Raya saja boleh lawat right? Hehehe.. These are the recent pics I caught yeah. Alhamdulillah quite happy with my raya this year. Too fun. Too relaxing sampai duduk message chair. HEHE!

 So I have been addicted to this restaurant called Ricebowl Restaurant. Omg I don't know why but..the food there are not like it's too die for lah ah.. It is just good pulang but I can't explain how I am addicted to them! The menu though normal but original atu kali ah. Like the 'Kue Tiaw Cornbeef' for instance. I mean, they're the only place I know that has it and I LOVE IT! I've been there 5x in 2 weeks. First time tahku tu selain dari ngagga kantin malar. Mmmph. Hahah!

 We also surprised and celebrated my mum's birthday this month! My sibs and I got her flowers and cake. Saja. Au I know yang 'inda dapat di simpan tu eh sayang..' But seriously We simply cannot lawan what our dad bought her alright? -_- Nanti tah kami lawan once kami semua bekerja okay? Hehe InsyaAllah. Amin..

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY MUM! 

I HOPE YOU LIKE OUR PRESENTS FOR YOU! 
LOVE YOU ALWAYS!!!

Oh for your information; I got my flowers from Neptune Florist The Mall and my cake from Mr.Baker's. Flavour of the cake: Triple Chocolate Cheesecake.

SO DELICIOUS 5/5!!!

Netball! WOOHOO! WE ARE BACK BABY! Gila this month I've been playing it twice lah ah..Alum pulang banyak tu but wow..Alai tidak kuat lagi stamina lah..Tapi inda apa. I'll get it back. InsyaAllah. Hehe! So played both times at UBD sport centre with my team and MS friends. Siuklah I feel so at home when they're around. Hmm..Hehe!

Oh I've also realised that if tah saya ani tidak lah sesporty as I am; I bet I would've melatup by now. So..

Cantik? Senang my post today? Hahah..Alhamdulillah.. :3

Oh not to forget..

HAPPY 41ST MONTHSARRY SAYANG!!!

 I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! 

HEHE!

Love you to bits and thank you for everything sayang..Hehe. Pokoknya, I just want what we have right now; stay strong and just pray we'd be together berjodoh, Amin.

Aight atu saja dulu..Untill later!

I have to say my character building is all thanks to my Sayang pulang ah jua. Hairan kali kamu eh tapi seriously it's like 65% thanks to him. Here's why:

I tell him everything and he too to me. And when I had those paranoid breakdowns he'll be the one to scold me. Yes, he does not comfort. He scolds. Hehe. I guess that's one of the things I love about him. He really pisses me off like 40% of the time banarnya pasal ia suka menagur and marahi atu pulang ah. Not to mention he nags and nags and nags. Tuhan saja tau by how much. Mustahil lah that I won't be pissed off and get mad at him back so we do end up with fights.

Tapi when I am as karas as it is, he gives in. Oh he still nags and marahi but he gives in. So I love him for that. Because he's such an egg; hard on the outside but soft inside :3

Other than that, thanks to his nags and anger; I know when I'm right and when I'm wrong. Banar pulang saya ani tidak suka di tegur and I admit it but at the end of the day, I think back about his teguran or his complaints and when I feel he is right then I think I change from there. Those nags, teguran, complaints and anger he channels to me I honestly feel because he truly cares and not just using me or anything. From there, I feel he is serious.

I admit, I know him only 70%. Eventhough I've been with him for 3 years, I know I don't know him 100%.

I love everything about him so far Alhamdulillah. :) Even his bad side; I can accept it. InsyaAllah lah. Hahah.

So when he tells me his problems, I have another side to look at. This made me realised that I need to wake up and smell the roses and see that I'm not the only one in the field smelling them (HAHA apakan metaphor ku ah. I hope you guys get it). Together we both figure out our problems together and think of the best solution. This taught me to open up my mind alright as he have different views sometimes. He taught me to always be grateful for what I have because what I have is better than some of the people in this world. And yes, everyday I am always grateful for the reminder.

Fyi I'm not saying he is perfect. Haha because ia ani jenis kambangan jua. Hahaha. But seriously he is the best.

He is a rock banar tah. He makes me feel safe with his toughness, he smoothens out my ridges with his roughness and he is someone to lean on to when in trouble as he is solid as a rock.

Alhamdulillah I can't be grateful enough. Alhamdulillah.

Bah atu saja eh. Soon lagi yeah. Next time I'll try to kurangkan text and more on pictures. I try to kurangkan opinions and more on stories. Hehe thank! 

3 weeks in and I'm already skipping classes. Lalahku..Gila. Hahah..Why? Well mainly because my parents have this thing where they like to do soirees on a school night -_- Monday night, Tuesday night..You name it. Ya udah tu.

Yatah masuk jua tonight..I am soo tired. Baru siap panyap rumah apa and to top it all off mama minta dangani arahku to wait for dad downstairs. Me feeling kesian for her obliged to join with her downstairs. But seriously, I am tired. Inda cali ni.

So you might feel really hairan pulang ah..I mean if you're so tired why are you not asleep yet?

Well because I have this habit of not being able to sleep after 2. 3 baru tah ni. Confirm. Hahah..

So I skipped classes yesterday and I'm planning on skipping them as well later. Honestly I wouldn't skip it because I'm sleepy though. Sleep deprived is a common thing for me. But I can't take it because I'm sick really.

Haha au, batahkan bagitau sakit ah. Mmm baiklah.

Gila eh macamana kan jadi A-student ni? Aissh. Hahah.

Anyways,

Lately I've been meeting a lot of the people who's been looking down on me before.

Hehe random shit. I know.

You might think..What..? How can you know?

Well, maybe it's all in my head and maybe I have a slight case of paranoia but it's kind of obvious when.. 

They don't really talk to you when you're nice to them in the past,

They're shocked seeing you now,

They talk to you differently now,

and when I give them this attitude now.

Of course a lot have change in the course of 3 years. So different to the point that I'm not even sure whether I've changed or the people around me are.

Maybe both. Maybe.

Hahah.

For me I felt like I changed alright. Usually negativities I feel from someone would scare the crap out of me and I would over-analyse everything in the most heinous possible way. But now, I simply don't care anymore.

Because thanks to them, I realised that THAT is just a waste of time.

Thanks to them I realised that their negativities (their judgments) are not the things that will make me succeed whether it's in studies, work or my happiness.

And thanks to them I am able to live my life however I want and I don't really need to think what they say as long as my parents approve and I'm doing good.

So in the past I would try to win you and try to make you like me because somehow I am so famished for it; but now, I couldn't care less what you think about me and dissing me doesn't make me feel anymore little than you are feeling now. Because seriously, unless you're my boss; making you happy does not pay the bills and trying to make you like me does not get me anywhere.

I admit I am nice to people, I do not just terus-terus kasar arah orang okay? I admit to that extent.

So me being nice does not mean that I am trying to 'ngampu-ngampu.' So you don't need to be judgemental about the way I treat people. That's just the way I am. Kau kaya kah, perasan kaya kah, famous kah, perasan famous kah, lawa kah or perasan lawakah; agatah kau disana ah. I don't care. I can gain those on my own thank you very much.

So these people, I don't know why but I seriously am meeting a lot of them nowadays eh. It hit me right at my memories whenever I see one of them: Like this person used to ignore me, this person used to treat me differently and this person I knew used to diss me; and when everytime I meet them, Alhamdulillah a different light was shown and I admit, I love the look on their faces :p Hehe.

 I'm trying hard not to get them in my head though. I really do. And I always pray to Allah that I will always remember my roots, where I came from and how I came here.

And I'm not saying that now nada orang-orang baru jenis macam diorang lagi in my life pulang ah. Ada..Ganya now,

I don't really give a fuck about you.

Give all the bad looks you've got.

Malas tahku ingau.

And you can bet on that.

Hmm, usulnya saya ani macam banyak churhat tonight. Hehe memang kes batah inda blogging.

2 nights ago I made my mum cry. I didn't mean to of course but I was mad about my brothers but I scolded her instead. She got tears in her eyes alright but I apologised to her right a waylah ah. But seriously, nothing makes me feel bad than breaking my mum's heart; be it with anger or tears on her part.

Nauzubillah tapi seriously jangan kamu lupa, doa mama ani untuk anak makbul and sekali dosa tani arah mama ani ada, dosanya atu nada damit ah. Selagi mama tani indakan mengampunkan, Nauzubillah.

Always remember, 

We were in her stomach for 9 months. She fed us, bathe us, clothe us, taught us how to walk, talk and believe me without her guide, we wouldn't be here. We wouldn't be here.

I will and I want to always remember the struggles my mum had to go through just so I can get what I want and what a girl needs at a certain age. Mahal as it was she worked for it to get it for me and my brothers. No matter how hard it was; success kah inda, I know she tried. Seriously.

Susah senang tani, always with our family. Because susah senang, selagi diorang ada; diorang tani aga minta tolong segala and they are always in open arms to help if they can. Batah lagi kan family lain and friends tu. If parents nada pun udah, when we feel susah we will kanangkan diorang. We will. So please, don't you ever forget it Wahidah.

Hmm baiklah it's random shit night. Banartah. Hahah..Bah I'll make another post ni kali after this. Night, 

It's already the 4th day of raya!

Hehe au sudah seorang atu tegur pasal inda beupdate blog, teruslah I update..Haha you know who you are ;P

Anyways,

Yeah! Raya's here!

Hehe Alhamdulillah, all was okay lah my raya except..

for the part where each day I only go to around 1-2 houses? Not good.

Why?

Because I wear make up and I do dress it up. So it's quite tiring to do so much but only be able to show it off in so little time. I mean, my makeup will still look fresh by the time I get home!

The worst was when,

I went to my cousin's yesterday as our first house. I woke up late so I literally ran around showering and putting on my clothes. I didn't wear my tudong or makeup and I did them at my cousin's house instead. When I'm all done, my dad said we got to go somewhere. Once in the car, I asked where we're going and you know what he said?

He said, "Home."

I literally dressed myself up to go home. -_-

Special hantap rumahku atu kalah istana.

Pikir saja. Haha.

Mmph.

 My outfit for the 3rd Raya: 

Outfit: Custom-made baju kurung fesyen with chinese cotton; Shawl: H&M; Bag: Got it in China but my friend told me it's the new Alexander Mcqueen design. Shoes: Charles & Keith.

Akhir Ramadhan sudah..Time flew so fast. I thought it was just like the mid of the month! Turns out we have 1 more week of this holy month.

Again so busy liau! So I'm just going to post it short!

Busy with errands,

My gerai-geraian,

The business,

And my orientation!

Yes, I did mention right that I got accepted into UBD? Hehe Alhamdulillah..No words can describe how I feel but one thing's for sure is that I'm going to make use of my 4 years and just excel in them. Especially on my course!

My orientation started this week and since it's the holy month, there weren't many physical activities given. There were instead ALOT of briefings. Sigh. It was a 4 days activity and it was informative pulang..and it did help alot ganya..Mmm..I had headaches the whole timelah ah. It's sooo tiring..And boring..Especially when they briefed about something that is so obvious you don't really need 2-3 hours to talk about it. I also  had really little sleep (4 hours each day since the orientation) so on the last day (Thursday), I missed the orientation on the count of me sleeping until 2.30pm. Hmm..Hahah. Sorry. I hope tidak kena punish!

I'll be starting my class next week! And I cannot wait! Hehe.

And yeah I do hope I get accepted to attend the class modules I registered! Amin! 

So get ready world! In 4 years time InsyaAllah you shall witness the birth of a Computer Science Degree holder! Amin!

I introduce to you my ladies. We call ourselves MI (Modest Intruders) and we are secondary friends. So this was last week where we had our reunion when all of them got back form UK and Aussie. We had our iftar gathering at Pastamania and Alhamdulillah, our bond was strong as can be! It felt like I'm 18 all over again and we just talked like we didn't left at all! I wouldn't say we got maturer now because we are still crazy but one thing's for sure we got prettier lah ah. HEHE!

So now I'm practically here to talk about my Ramadhan lah pokoknya..Hmm, seriously..in conclusion I did not make good for myself this Ramadhan :( I know pulang there's a week left and I still have time (InsyaAllah) to make something good right? But seriously, as of now I really feel sad  that I didn't achieve anything.

InsyaAllah, I'll try.

I've been thinking about this for the past 2 weeks and today just made me realised; I'm given an great life. I am a lucky girl. And all I think about is working hard so that I do not lose this luxuries I'm given. Good as it is to 'berusaha' and just make something good out of yourself, but I haven't given in to Him. And I asked myself when am I going to wake up? When do I actually plan to?

Am I waiting for when I am 30?

Am I waiting for when I am married?

What happens when I don't live untill 30? or until I am married?

What happens then?

Hmm..

Anyways, Raya is practically next week so I would like to wish everyone an advance,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI!

MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN!

Until next time! Soon!