The next day in Dubai, we first decided to go to Dubai Mall. So okay, first off if you're from Deira and you want to go to Dubai Mall; don't use the train. Trust me. Especially if you have your family with you, your parents who has ankle and knee pains already. Trust me. Just don't use the train.Why? Okay here's why:

1. Total costs for using the taxi and train are about the same. Infact, it was actually cheaper to use taxis as a group compared to the train. To and from Dubai Mall back to Deira was UAE35. Us 6 for train tickets costs UAE48 in total.
2. The trains are separated women and men; we were quite comfortable but my brothers and dad had to squeeze in and squish themselves with other people. It was sad to see.
3. As you reach for Dubai Mall/Burj Khalifa's stop; you'd think you stop exactly below or above the mall but no, you have to walk more. Imagine walking from Pavilion (KL) to Suria KLCC using the bridge. So tiring and really, not worth it. UAE35, the taxi gets you to the main entrance of that mall.
4. The journey takes a really long time.
5. Some people online said it's a cheap way to see the city. NOT. Your view is blocked by people in the train. What view can you see? View of their boobs. Maybe.
6. Just don't.

I'm not saying the train is so bad though. For one thing it's REALLY CLEAN and safe; though it is for our (women's) protection but I don't think there should be barriers with me from my brothers and dad. It is cheap if you're just alone and if you're that adventurous but seriously, it was a lesson for me. Do not use the train if you're with your family. Costs about the same if you ride taxis. Trust me.

You've to lie down for this shot. Haha.

That's one big place and so many people! Trust me I didn't even manage to get to even 1/4 of the place. For one thing it's because we were already tired from walking from the train stop and then well, we didn't have much time before our afternoon desert safari tour. But yeah I got to eat there and then just chill and see the fountains outside the mall. We even get to enjoy the dancing fountain thing outside. We went back home with the taxi. Seriously, cheaper for 6 of us rather than the taxi. Haiyah. Hahah. Dubai Mall is a must visit. Trust me.

After Dubai Mall, there was the desert safari! We got on a UAE150 per person tour package that includes the desert visit as well as the dinner at the desert camp. Our taxi driver said we could get a slightly cheaper package cost about UAE125. First was a visit to this small buggies spot where we can ride the desert using them at UAE150. Of course that place was a tourist place so every prices there were hiked up (mineral water, the sahal) so really just bring your own water from the hotel. But I gotta say observing the place as a whole really gave me a surreal feeling, a dream in a sense. Felt like I was in a movie? Something like that. Because there were so many people with different religion and language and there was music; it was like a bazaar really. Rugged I'd have to say.

There were music playing, people going around and about, kids playing, grown ups sitting smoking etc. Kind of surreal. Hahah.

The boys ride the desert while the girls watch.

Dad and the brothers rode on the small buggies (I don't remember what they're exactly called lol!) and hmm, I kinda regret not going? But I don't know, I prefer to spend my money on shopping rather than that since we'd ride it afterwards anyways in the car. Hahah. So yeah after that we rode the desert using Land Cruisers and omg, it was crazy! Imagine the small 4D-ish Transformer ride at Universal Studio Singapore times 4! That's how bumpy it was. I was worried my mum wouldn't be used to it since she has vertigo but I was instead who was sick! I mean, I just 'felt' sick. I didn't puke okay? Hahah.But yeah, it was bumpy but it was fun!

That view after the desert roller coaster. Lol!

My brother took some of the pictures so credits to him! Hahah..

 The desert was beautiful, Mashaallah. I mean I was awestruck the whole time I was there in Dubai (since it was my first time traveling outside of Asia) but that desert, wow. I did mention we were there during the winter right? Seriously though, even the sand was cold. I was so sakai I grabbed the sand and everything. Good thing I was slightly sick though, I held myself in so that I wouldn't barf and that controlled me to not run around amok. Lol.

The belly dance performance. Hahah.

So after the show was over, we we taken home to our hotel by our guide.

I think everybody should not miss this tourist visit. It's an experience you won't forget. I mean, you'd get to tell people you've been to the desert, you watched the sunset there and you'd get to say you had dinner at the middle of the desert; I think not everybody could say that right? So while you'll be there why not go?

and oh, it was cold by the night time. Seriously, I was sakai of the cold. Hahah.

Alright till next time! I am now too sleepy to type anymore.

Assalamualaikum lovelies! Lama is it I've written something? Hehe, sorry I've been busy but yeah other than that I just got back from my family holiday Alhamdulillah and this year we went to Dubai for our trip! I'll be blogging about it of course so if sudi, sit back relax and just read on!

The flight from Brunei to Dubai took 8 hours and 15 minutes. It was my first time ever to be on such a
long flight so overall I was sakai. Hehe..We also get to try the Dreamliner on this trip and again, I was sakai with the entertainment they provide in it. Lalah eh long flight ani. Hahah, I cannot imagine the ones who goes through it frequently and the longer flights. Ayung lah ah. Hahah.
 
We arrived at our hotel in Deira around 3am Dubai time and the moment I stepped out of the car I got sakai again; the wind was so cold! Like air-conditioned cold! I couldn't believe it. Mind you I've never traveled outside of Asia and I've never experience winters in Hong Kong or China so seriously, I was really shocked and sakai. Hahah. As for our hotel, our room was an apartment and it was a 3 room apartment with living room, kitchen and balcony. Quite pleasant. Again I got sakai because the AC wasn't on but it's cold! After going through the place, we finally settled and went to sleep at 4am.

The day later, our first stop was Naif. Simply put it's like Masjid India times 3? It has fabrics, gold, technologies, abayas and etc. Alot of stuff to see and the plus thing about going there during winter time? It's cool so it wasn't really a bad ordeal for my brothers (who usually whines when we're at Masjid India for too long). It's clean too! The markets there are called souks and it was so fun going in and out of nooks and crannies of the place. Bought abayas for myself and some shawls. Fabrics too but honestly if I'd want to buy fabrics like the chiffon, I'd rather buy the ones from Ho Chi Minh or China. One thing it cost about the same and there's alot more fabric there compared to Naif- or perhaps I've only went to a very small part of Naif. Hmm. Hahah. We had our lunch there as well and I've got to say food portions are really big. For me. Hahah I was pretty sure I couldn't finish it so I just opted on ordering arabic salad. Atu pun inda abis. Luan banyak. Hahah.

That day's OOTD.

Our lunch at Naif was at this restaurant called something Afghani. Dad's Charcoal Chicken was the bomb!

Do you see that rice portion? Confirmed I cannot finish that on my own.

A part of Naif.

After Naif we went back to our hotel and continued on to the mall nearby called Deira City Mall. My brother has small expectations for this mall but heck when I went in it definitely served me well! I mean, quite large. The size is like, 1Borneo I should say but alot more stores I am in love with! So I shopped there for abit and ate sandwiches. It was pleasant. Hehe.

Just a section of the place from where we ate sandwiches.

Yummy artisan sandwiches. Hahah, ate alot of these the whole time I was in Dubai.

I couldn't really remember what I did after Deira Mall but I think we just went home and relaxed. Harris bought a hoverboard so that mainly distracted my evening. Hahah, hoverboards are so fun! I would like to buy one should the chance come again. Banartah! It's crazy fun! Damn! Hahah..

Well that was day 1. Day 2 up next!

So I went to the beach last Sunday with Muiz. He invited me to join him and his friends at their picnic/gathering. I was nervous honestly because I haven't met the others before; I only knew his old crew which most of them are the same age as mine. Now, his crew -gaming crew to be exact, has lots of new members so Muiz and his other friend (the only one I know) are the only seniors left. He also mentions that I am maybe the 2nd oldest in the lot. Yes ladies and gents, I was kira the kaka, the nuna, the older sister; or dare I mention, the babu. Hehh -_- Hahah..

The boys playing Frisbee

Who knew we'd be together until this day <3 Hehe.

I think I should have an extra fabric or a balaclava with me.

 One of the challenges, well, my biggest insecurity lah ah..Is my face of course. My acne to be exact. It goes crazy in hot weathers! And seriously, I should google on tips for acne during sunny days. Aku jarang wah bepanas bawah matahari. Yatah susahlah when I'm under the sun. My face gets red, my acne flares and my oil..Omg, it's a wonder why Shell hasn't contact me for my oil. It can light up a house for a week okay? Lol, over. Yes.

But yeah it was fun! The guys are funny..So funny lah banartah..Hahah..Jokes palingku tepakai di dunia. Banartah. Bisai diorang ani. Most memorable would have to be when some of them started to throw the guys who weren't "swimming ready" you should say? So this big guy started to run away from the waters to avoid being dumped in.Then his friend comes around and shouted. "Oi! Inda jua diorang kan umban kau tu! Barat pulang kau ah!" HAHAHA OMG TALUR.

It was fun, it was relaxing lah..All the time I was with him, I kept thinking how the years have passed. Then, I thought..Wow. This man. Hehe I love. Catulah.

Monday was presentation day.

 It was presentation day on Monday. No comment. Some took too long to talk. I have to say my intake loves to talk. Lol. It was a good thing I timed myself the night before, if I didn't I would most probably would've passed my 10 minutes limit. Tapi! Lapas atu! FREEDOM! WHEE! Alhamdulillah!

3 days Miri trip after.

 Yes ladies and gents, after my presentation I went to Miri with Muiz and his family. My last Miri trip was in March I think and it was just for our netball mini game with a team from Miri so this time, I finally get to enjoy my Miri trip! I think people (Muiz especially) wondered why the hell do I want to go to Miri so badly. I mean, like he said it's just Miri but I don't know I guess I'm just fascinated with some people who could and would go to Miri nearly 1-2 times per month? It made me wonder what is exactly there. So then that 3 days trip gave me some ideaslah ah. For one thing I am in love with Popular! Omg. I went to that shop 3 days in a row man. I really love it there. Cute thing is Muiz just accompanies me to go there and at times I didn't buy anything and he doesn't mind. He said he likes that I read and loves seeing books. Heehee.

Other than that, wow..Out of all trips I've gone to I think this is the most relaxing one. I mean, even when we went out to the mall, we'd just sit at the cafes and drink some tea/coffee. Chill lah ah most definitely. We ordered room service and just ampai-ampai liat TV. I for one didn't have to think about any work (since all attachment related assignments were done after the presentation) and well, I didn't have to think about anyone there since I was traveling somewhat alone. It was really fun. It made me realize that that right there is what relaxation means: you chill with someone you love. Well, I think it felt relaxing because I finished my work! Lol! But yeah, I'd definitely would go to Miri again to chill! Definitely!

Most awesome find! Best Eastern don't even have this yet on their shelves!

Yes, they got me.

 Uhuh, adult colouring have knocked my doors and asked can I be addicted. I bought the small book for 5rm at one of the magazine stores at Parkson. Seriously, I wanted to try because I was curious why is it so addictive to some people. So yeah, I understand now. It is addictive.



 I finally tried Vanilla Kitchen! It's located at Ct Square, Brunei. Well, I have to say.. price is worth it. Seriously, to me not that expensive lah cause it matches the quantity and it's a plus that it tasted more divine than expected! I'd definitely would love to go to them again, definitely!

Cupcake   BND2.50
I don't remember what's the cake called!   BND4.00
Lemonade   BND3.00
Damage = BND9.50

The desserts I had was so good. Not too sweet and seriously, nyaman! Do try thme out and support local businesses yo! This one's worth it!

Night!

Haha. Tapi banar, the food here is awesome! Lots of varieties both local and other cuisines and honestly it's better eating here than eating outside of the country. Cheaper? Well except for seafood and franchise restaurants. Hmm, scratch that. It's the same damn thing. Although, we don't have service charges here except for the restaurant at the airport and hotels pulang ah..Mmmm.

Muiz's back! And this time we went to the new Swensen's at Sengkurong. It look's good though but, you know. It's Swensen's; you've tasted it but yeah if you want a bigger space, that's the place to go!

I was right. I do have insomnia.

Well, an acute insomnia perhaps? Or maybe just minute. But yeah, apparently insomnia is characterised by difficulty of falling and/or staying asleep. I have both.

And apparently, it may be characterised by medical problems as well such as hypothyroidism.

I mean, all this time I thought it's just caused by emotional or psychological problems (such as stress or just being too awesome; mungkin Einstein. Banyak pikir. Haha.) but yeah it may actually cause by your body condition. Seriously.

Frankly speaking I don't have anything to worry for now but when I do start to "want" to sleep, alot of thoughts just come into my mind and suddenly I'd want to do all the things I was too lazy to do during the day; like singing, watching television and writing. Sometimes, I think it's just boring to sleep. It's such a waste.

I guess I really need to handle this. Hahah.


Get enough sleep people. Sleep is really important apparently. You're lucky if you're sleeping right now. Hahah.

Anyways,

So her name is Najwa, a Malaysian Netball player (I'm assuming for under 21). Basically I would give everything to have her height. Well, only when I play netball lah ah. Hahah..She is so awesome I have to say. I mean I don't know her and I've never personally talked to her but apparently she is famous in the Netball scene earlier, kinda like MVP you must say. When I saw her play here, (she's also the captain for the Malaysia team) I thought to myself, "Wow so this is how a captain should do. How a captain should be." She is awesome, good and so..authoritative. She scolds the players for their mistakes and does not disappoint eh; I mean, of course she deserves to be that way cause she is that good. Seriously. Man I wish I can be like that.I wish I can play like that. I wish I am tall like that when I play. Hahah.

 We watched the ASEAN School Games Netball matches this week and I am very impressed (mostly jealous). Malaysia will win later for sure but despite that, Brunei Netball team to me does not disappoint despite -a term I shall use, "kana sayur." I personally think they can improve and with more training and communication with each other, I know they can do it. Heck, with their skills now if we were to lawan diorang I'd say kami yang "kana sayur." Seriously.

Was fun to watch. I mean, I usually don't really involve myself in these kinds of things (be it fairs and such) and I think I should join more in the future.

Aight.

This one's a keeper.

I have deactivated my Facebook. I have deactivated my Twitter. All that's left of my social network is Instagram and Pinterest; and I guess you'd wonder how come and why. Well, just getting to the point is basically I fell victim to a..what do you call it? Fake identity+hating+stupid+malukan maruah+jelousy-ish kind of thing? That person sold my information, my pictures and my contact number to AFC which is an old dating site where people can just chat there msnchat style? I don't know if you remember but yeah we did chat that way in the old days.

It started August I think and you know, tiba-tiba saja my phone went wild with whatsapp texts from different kinds of people where all of them said, "Hi Ydahh?" Unknown numbers mind you and I just thought, "What the hell is this?" So I asked one of them and then he told me that I am in that site; and at that time "I" was selling myself off making myself available for pick-up and what not; bluntly speaking the "I" in that site am available for sex. At first, I wasn't scared since they don't really know how I looked like but damn did it shocked me when the guy sent a picture of me. I immediately showed it to my parents and well yeah, we went straight to the police. A full report was made to the police of this incident.

Mind you, I wasn't that scared or the least bother at first. Well I was worried when I knew a picture of me is at the hands of those people but I was still relaxed though even during the police report. I did however bawled when I finally found the so-called account of myself in the site later that afternoon. Seeing your pictures there (innocent ones; my profile pictures), all your information as if you, yourself is saying those putrid stuff and those people just believed it is just gilalah rasanya..I mean, it wasn't true. I'm not selling myself, I'm not a whore and I definitely am not interested in making any contact with any of you over there. Trust me.

So it continued on after that..Texts, whatsapps, calls and all I could do was reject everything and blocked anybody who just simply said "Hi" to me. I tried not to get it into my head and Alhamdulillah I managed to just let it be since the stupid texts/calls stopped for a while after ignoring.

Though it wasn't as bad as someone physically assaulting you (nauzubillah) but I can't deny you do feel let down; you do feel exposed and you do feel so...I don't know, traumatised by it? Just little bitlah ah but like I said, Alhamdulillah I managed to just let it be. I thought to myself, as long as the ones I love know how I am then I am fine.

But then, a week plus before my engagement the person went over the board and decided to do the same tactics through Facebook. He/she created a Facebook account called "Puppey Si Wahidah Wahab," added friends and famlies of ours (Muiz and mine) and I don't know what he/she wanted to do but they somehow failed because Muiz inbox them and they immediately deactivated the account. So after that my phone went crazy again with the texts/calls and well yeah, that person was so determined I have to say and I don't know why.

I then changed my number. Yes, you may wonder why didn't I change it from the beginning? Why complicate yourself that way and make it difficult? Well, to answer that: I wanted to find that person. I was holding on to my number because I wanted to find him/her. To me it felt more safe to have the old number and know what is going on on that side you know, just in case something bad is bound to happen. But then I realised, it wasn't worth it to make him/her my priority; definitely not worth it and that's when I start to change my number.

A few days after my engagement, I went out for dinner with Muiz before he went to work the next day. He left his mobile on our table when he went to the toilet and somehow at that moment, I really wanted to kacau his phone. So I did and then an image in his album shocked me to my bones:

There was a collage of my profile pictures mixed together with pictures of naked lady bodies and like an advertisement it said to contact me through facebook, instagram, twitter and whatsapp for "bookings."

I asked him what the fuck is that and so he finally told me; That image was sent to him through inbox by his friend on Monday (the day after our engagement) because his friend was offered by an unknown Facebook user and Alhamdulillah his friend went straight to him to ask and to make sure if this is true or what. Muiz went straight to the unknown profile and swore his ass off to that person; which resulted the person removing him/herself from Facebook, again. And that was the last we heard of him/her.

I cried like crazy when I saw those pictures. I know it's not my body and seriously those people are just stupid to believe it. I mean, if I wanted to post naked pictures of myself I might as well show my face along with those bodies. I do not need to crop my head off and collage the pictures with my profile pictures. Seriously.

But that picture felt like the last straw and believe me, I now understood why some people chose suicide when they are depressed. Honestly I am not trying to make it so dramatic but I was depressed, I was stressed, I was angry and to make it more worst I couldn't do anything because I, we don't know who is doing this and why ia tergamak. He/she made me feel like I don't have any value and I feel like I'm being treated like an animal; it's just crazy. It boggles my mind that a person could do this and is just..berani. What's more worst is that it made me so sad that my parents had to see me being treated this way and my dad's name had to be included in that damned picture. They are being strong about it but I can't help but feel guilty for them eventhough I shouldn't.

That's why I left for a while. I was scared. I was scared that people would believe it, I was scared random people would recognise me and judge me I was scared those people who tried to contact me would recognise me when I go out and approach me. I was scared that the people I love would believe it.

As of now, I'm just letting it be though. I'm so tired of thinking and just couldn't care less; I am thankful I have my family and friends who loves and support me (my parents especially).

Ganya yatah masalahnya, di biarkan makin gila ya makin berani. Inda ia pecaya bah bereport ke polis sudah ah. Buduh kah apa indaku tau, mungkin buduh banar inda takutlah ah.

If you're reading this, I'm happy with my life. So please just stop tiring yourself with this. It's not worth it.

Assalamualaikum everybody! Yes, I'm back! For now. HAHA. How've you been? I hope your life is awesome so far? Ameen it is. My last post was sort of eons ago (felt like it!) and you may wonder where I've been; why the delay and etc? Well, InsyaAllah I'll put up another post regarding that but I'm back mainly because a reader encouraged me to. You see I thought no one reads my blog and well, I wasn't expecting any besides my friends and my fiance (YES I AM ENGAGED!) so to hear a stranger mentioning your own blog; it's an honour. You've no idea how much you've touched my heart and motivate me to come back, Thank you.

So today I went to Bandar with my girls just to hang out and to support our girl with her beverage business, @aingnuman. Bottled classic drinks: Bandung, Kopi, Milo and Teh and it costs $2 each! She joined the vendor spaces in conjunction with our city's name change from (hee, I forgot what) to Bandar Seri Begawan and oh! There were go karts as well! Classic car show, food, drinks, henna, face paintings and etc! Sadly it's the last day today so yeah I'm not promoting, I'm just saying.



The weather was hot. Seriously hot. I am not joking. I literally sweated like a chimp and trust me, in Brunei's climate it is possible. But, since I wasn't alone sweating it was bearable..Lol! I had fun banartah..Because hanging out with my girls is not just "hanging out," it's art. Eksenku. Haha. It's more beautiful than that. So many jokes, stories and feelings shared lah ah. Yeah. Also, aingnuman quenched my thirst, teeheehee.

But more than that, I just love how despite how long it has been that my girls and I don't meet with eachother we are cool with it; and when we start talking it's as if we've just met yesterday and not 2 - 6 months ago. That's the beauty of it Alhamdulillah. I got me self some soul sisters; good for the body and soul. Hehe, eceh.



So the school holidays are near; alot of the exams are done (as in o-levels, a-levels etc), under/graduates exams are next week (good luck!) and I on the other hand am on my holiday because I am finished with my attachment already! Yes people, I'm doing my DY right now. How time flies..End of next year, finaly year tia.

Alright I'll stop here. Untill then!