Rajin: Definisi 'rajin' adalah dengan ringkasnya suka berkerja, bersungguh-sungguh berkerja. Manakala erti sebenarnya adalah melakukan sesuatu dengan senang. Jadinya perkataan rajin ini adalah satu perkataan yang saya dengan senang boleh katakan bahawa ianya tidak ada dalam kamus diri saya. Mungkin ada tetapi semestinya bukanlah dalam perkara-perkara yang memberi manfaat untuk diri saya seperti bersenam, makan, tidur dan tengok televisyen.

I want to be rajin. Straight up. Who doesn't right? Well, I wish I'm rajin in a sense that can benefit myself and my family. Like making money, making yummy food that you can sell, selling stuff and making success after success that is not just beneficial to just me alone. Sleeping, eating and exercising only helps me; and can that really make me happy? I admit I do try to be rajin as I can be but I gotta say, it is soooo hard. I mean, I am a lazybum at heart. I acknowledge that. So I'm basically trying to get there at the slowest pace possible but I'm not giving up. I refuse to.

So this past year taught me stuff so far. The fact I was jobless for these past 7 months made me wonder what would happen when I don't have my house, my car and my family to support me?

I thought of getting husband. A rich one at that. It'll be easy right? He has money and he'll support me and also attend to my every needs. Then I'd just have to take care for the kids and just live my life. Right? But then I thought what would happen if that husband leaves me and the kids? What would happen then?

Then I thought, 'Bah belajar saja.' Which is what I am doing right now, something that I've decided when I was way younger. That I'd like to get a degree, work comfortably in a high position with a high salary and just live like that. So easy right? Just study study study. But then I thought, okay you get your degree, you get your job and you are up there. What happens when you fall down? All this time all you did was study hard and get the job based on your qualifications without any experience of the job whatsoever. What happens then? Have you thought about anything as backup? I realised even my best idea has its obstacle now.

So then I tried looked the people around me. Inda payah jauh-jauh, I looked at my parents. My dad works hard in his job and he is just good at what he does. I mean, he's the one people search for to finish jobs as complicated as it gets. But other than his job, he thinks outside the box. I realise he always talks about business stuff with me. Be it something he'd like to try or others' business. When he wants something he works for it and even if it takes 3-7 years to achieve it, it will be in his arms. Alhamdulillah. Other than that he always tells me when he was younger; how hard his life was and that made him want to live a better life and provide for us. His aim was simply that and thanks to that aim, I have a life that I am just thankful for. He taught me to think about futures; whether we'll live to see that day or not. Just think about it.

My mum on the other hand, sadly to say works hard but is in an environment where favourite people are put in front first compared to the ones who work. So it aches me to see my mum when she comes home all tired and just getting nowhere. But here's where I am astonished by her. She bakes Eid cakes and those earning gets our Eid clothes; she thinks of all the things she can sell to people to just get the money and just doesn't give up even if it gets tiring. She taught me to just never give up and just be prepared for disappointments; and those combined observations made me think.

It made me think that, don't depend on anyone or anything. You can and you should because you can never do things on your own but always prepare backups. Always explore and always try your capabilities. Think of the future. Just because you're comfortable now it doesn't mean it will be the same forever. In a moment it can change and when it changes what happens then? Are you prepared for it?

That's why my only solution for now is to just be rajin. Just get use to being rajin; rajin to think, rajin to work, rajin to solve.

Toodles,